heartbreak

I'm new to this whole blog world. I've just recently found several blogs that truly entertain me. I've been away for a while, doing mommy things, and sister things, and wife things, and not really knowing what to write about. Until today. I logged on and started to catch up on some of my favorite blogs. I couldn't even believe it when I read that Beth from I should be folding Laundry lost her baby twin boys. She was about 19 weeks pregnant. I've never met Beth. I've only left maybe one or two comments for her in the short time I've been reading her blog, but here I am, broken hearted for her. I just don't even have the words to express how I feel. I wish I could say something magnificent that would help heal their hurt, but it's just not possible. They have to feel pain, they have to love and mourn their beautiful baby boys at the same time. Life can be so hard sometimes, hard and overwhelming. But, isn't it good to know that even in the worst of times God is right here for us. He never leaves us or forsakes us. AND, oh this has helped me many times, he will NOT put on us more than what we can handle. So, if your reading this, please say a prayer for the dear family that is going through so much sadness right now. Pray for strength, and understanding.......just pray.

Brrr...

Oh my, it is cold outside!!! As I sit here in my cozy bedroom all I can hear is the wind. Its making everything pop and crack and howl! It's snowing again to. It's really really pretty, as long as I'm inside looking out. It wasn't this cold yesterday, so you can imagine my surprise when we left for church this morning and I didn't have my heavy coat on. Brrrrrr....at least Little Guy was snuggled into his snowsuit. Maybe not snuggled, more like stuffed, zipped and wrapped in a blanket!!! I'm just glad to be home and glad to have power. Our whole city blacked out for a few hours in the middle of the night last night. It was cold, but we had company over last night any so we made some fun out of it!!! Little Guy spent the night with his Mamaw, so it was fun to be in the middle of a winter storm, with no power and not have to worry about him getting too cold. We were up most of the night and since we have a small generator our little house had many people it. It was great fun! But we are all a little sleepy today.......I think Little Guy has the right idea....he is snuggled in his bed taking a lazy Sunday nap!!!! God Bless!!!

Oh yeah, in case you were wondering...the wind chill is - 25.....and yep, that is a NEGATIVE 25!!! Oh my!!!

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Do you ever just have those days that you don't even want to get out of bed?
Oh brother, that is today! It seemed as soon as I opened my eyes this morning
I was in a sour mood. And that's just no fun for anyone. Especially my Little Guy, and his daddy, and we can't forget the little girl that I babysit, Halee. I thought that maybe cleaning the kitchen and really getting some things done that I have been putting off would make me feel better. Ya know what? I was so wrong.... now my back hurts and I hit my thumb with a hammer. Grrrr..... the good news is that Little guy is in bed early and A went to visit our Pastor thats in the hospital. I have at least a good hour to go soak in a hot tub and relax. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day, I pray so. I don't like being in a funk, but thats what I am....in a funk. I think maybe when we get up in the morning Little Guy and I will go to the mall
and walk around some before I have to babysit. It's good to get out of the house...Goodnight ya'll...God Bless!!

What a fun day!!

A, Little Guy, and I had our family pictures taken today, along with Little Guys first birthday pics. It was sooo much fun!!! They turned out really cute, I can't wait to share them with ya! He was such a good boy the whole time we were there. Everyone who knows us keeps asking when we are going to get pictures done. Poor little guy has only had his pics taken professionally once. It was not a fun experience. Actually, it was such a bad experience that we couldn't hardly bear to go through it again. I was so nervous this morning before going, but it was all good. God was with us today! Can you tell how pleased I am? A is at his mama's house right now showing off the proofs. He just couldn't wait! After pics we went to the best mexican restaurant in town and had a yummy lunch. Little guy is fast asleep for his nap, its raining outside, and I'm about to steal a little zzz's myself!! Have a blessed day!

Home remodeling.....ugh...I can hardly bear to even finish..... we moved into this charming little house almost five years ago, and we still haven't finished remodeling. It's truly almost done now though. All thats left if a little bit of paint and carpet in our spare bedroom. I can hardly even remember what the house looked like before we started, and I can wait to see what it looks like when we are done! I have had blinders on for so long that this past week when we finished putting the trim up around all the windows and doors I was speechless! I forgot that thats what a house is supposed to look like! Oh well......it'll be good when it's done....I'm just so tired...... A went to pick up a pizza for a late dinner and the Little Guy is fast asleep in his bed....thats my cue to put on my pj's, pour me a coke on ice, and watch American Idol that I've got taped on DVR.....good night to all....God Bless you!!!

Oh, yeah, if you are the praying kind, we are getting family pictures taken tomorrow, and so far it has never been a pleasant experience......Little Guy is just like his Daddy....gotta make things interesting.......

My Little Guy is not so little anymore.....

Wow, what an exciting day! We have put it off, and put it off...till finally my Little Guy no longer fits in his infant car seat! I didn't want to admit that he was too big for it. Everyone tells you how fast the time goes and how fast they grow up....oh my, is that the truth! I do realize, in case you were wondering, that he isn't even a year yet and already I am having anxiety about him growing up. The good news is that he already had a big boy car seat. His Aunt Lisa bought it for him when he was first born. It was so fun to put him in it! He got so excited and started clapping his hands and squealing! It was such a happy time. He was in our living room when we put him in it to make sure the straps were all set before we fastened it into the car and he wouldn't get out of it!
Whenever we would unstrap him to get him out he would scream! He sat in his new big boy seat for almost a half an hour! And, as if this wasn't enough big boy stuff to make my heart break enough for one day, when we did finally wrestle him from his car seat he took his first steps by himself! Two tiny little shaky steps.....but they were steps. It was too much. I can't for the life of me remember what life felt like before him. I do, however, remember what it looked like.......but again....that's for another day. Good night ya'll... and God Bless!

Do you ever feel like you have SO much to say, and yet, you have no idea where to begin? Welcome to my blog! I'm sure with a little bit of practice I'll ease into this with a little more self confidence. I am a stay at home mama and married to the most wonderful, infuriating, hilarious man in all the world. We'll call him A. He has truly changed my life..... you'll get to know more about all of that later....another blog for another day. ANYWAY, I've always worked. Since the day I turned 16 and was able to get that job at McDonald's. So this stay at home mom and be domestic thing has really turned my life upside down. I remember in the years past when that alarm would sound in the early morning hours all I could think was that someday, some way, I was never going to have to work again. God has a great sense of humor don't ya think? 10 months ago I gave birth to the sweetest, most darling little guy ever. I had planned to take some time off work and spend with him and then return to being a preschool teacher. While on maternity leave I did the best I could to keep the house clean, have dinner on the table when A got home, keep up with the laundry....all that domestic stuff that everyone knows I am horrible at! I've always tried, but lets just face it, why cook a meal when we can go for take out right? Not to mention, why organize when I can simply stick it in a closet ( and never under the bed, right?). That's just who I am. Take me or leave me. Needless to say, when it came time to return to work A realized that all my new found domesticity(thats a word, really...) was going to have to go on the back burner and he would have to help out again. Thats when we made the decision that I would quit my job. My dreams came true.......oh, how naive I was. I pictured days of watching tv, sleeping in, going anywhere I wanted. Then I heard the little guy crying. My endless days of laziness are to be no more....at least until he is big enough to entertain himself for a few minutes. Teasing! Anyway, all of this was to bring you up to where I am now. I can't wait to share with you the joys and trials that await me in this crazy life. The important thing is that I am enjoying every minute of.....and now I get to share it with you!